I have him in my mind…
I was driving in my car when I saw a couple of lovers in the car in front of me. They looked so loving…they smiled to each other so often and laughed together at something occasionally. They looked perfectly happy. I did envy them and even feeling sorry to myself for being and driving alone all the time.
I wish I can be on the passenger’s seat and let the man I love and loves me too drive while we share sweet ride together. Perhaps we can sing our favourite songs together out loud and laugh to each other’s foolishness but still feel good about it. I might feel contented with him around. I might feel happier. But he does not exist.
It woke me up. The imaginary him was unavoidable but till I meet him, I have to depend on myself and drive the car by my self, alone. I hope I can find him. I know he is somewhere out there.